when i look at those deviants here, i feel like 'what am i doing? they're the same age as me but we're worlds apart! where do they get their inspiration? how did they produce such works?' they can do everything - short films, digital, photography, like a pro, ok?? how did my time pass and i've produced nothing good?

it's fruastrating, to sit in front of a computer staring at softwares. sometimes i feel like an engineer. where did the creativity go to?

i don't want to work FOR people. listening to what they want, meeting their requests. where's the time for me? advertising is like that.


bah, anyway, i can't wait to graduate. i want to try so many things.

i just miss my creative self, that's all.